Cutter, 6 (Red Sin MC)

By: Alexa Rynn

Chapter One

GRACE



I stared down at my stomach, rubbing my hand back and forth over the center of it. I still couldn’t believe it. A little person was growing inside of me right now, developing more and more every minute of every day.

I was going to be a mother!

I didn’t know anything about being a mother!

“Are you worrying again?” Cutter said from the seat next to me. “I thought I told you that you weren’t allowed to worry anymore?” He reached across the car and took my hand in his while he took a left down a street I didn’t recognize.

“I can’t help it!” I admitted. “I don’t know anything about being a mother, what if I screw it up? What if… what if he or she hates me?” I glanced out the car window, taking in the beautiful trees and full branches.

“Of course, they aren’t going to hate you!” Cutter squeezed my hand. “I don’t think anyone could hate you, Grace. You just need to calm down, it’s not good for you or the baby to be anxious.”

Ugh, Cutter had been quoting tips and facts the doctor had told us for weeks, he had literally remembered every single word while I was too much of a mess to hear anything she said, let alone remember it. You would have thought Cutter would have freaked out the way I did after we found out but surprisingly he was calmer than me.

It was like the thought of having a child didn’t scare the shit out of him.

Of course, it wasn’t like it was that real yet. The baby wasn’t here and we hadn’t told anyone about it yet, including his father. That was a conversation I wasn’t looking forward to, I didn’t want him to think me getting pregnant had anything to do with the deal I had made with him.

“That’s so easy for you to say, Cutter. You just don’t get it.” I turned in my seat and glanced at him. “You’ll be a great father because you’re great at everything you do. You set your mind on something and then it’s like riding a bike to you.”

Cutter glanced at me, curious. “Like riding a bike?”

“Yeah, you know like that saying they use, it’s so easy for some people to do everything right and good, just like riding a bike.” I looked down at my stomach and started rubbing my hand over my small bump again, I’d been rubbing it and looking at it ever since we left the doctor's office weeks ago. I was so paranoid that even the littlest movement would hurt him or her.

“I don’t think that’s what it means.” Cutter chuckles. “I think what it means is that once you do something one time, you can do it again without forgetting it, even if it’s a long time in-between.”

“Yeah,” I tell him. “That’s what I said.”

Cutter looked puzzled. “Not really because I’ve never been a father before so I couldn’t remember how to do it easily since I’ve never done it before.”

“What I meant was that you’re just naturally so good at everything! So you don’t need to worry about sucking at being a father the way I have to worry about sucking at being a mother!” I pulled my hand back from him, exasperated.

“Hey!” He reached for me. “Stop it, you aren’t going to suck as a mother, you’re going to be great! It’s normal to be worried, this is a new thing for both of us… we just have to stick together and everything will be alright, okay?” He glanced at me out of the corner of his eye. “I love you.”

The words cut through my body deep and landed right through my soul. Ever since he had said those words to me for the first time when I was laying in his arms, close to death, I’d started to really them. He didn’t say it too much because that wasn’t Cutter’s style; I knew it took everything out of him to say it at all. I was pretty sure it was considered a sign of weakness in his world, a trait that made you vulnerable to someone else, which was never a good thing.

“Thank you,” I told him, meaning it. “I love you, too.”

I was already starting to feel better, Cutter had this way of making me feel like everything was going to be okay even if the world was blowing up in ashes and smoke around us. I trusted him, I trusted him more than I had ever trusted anyone else in my entire life.

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